the dog eating men


 selective memory [2002]


the mind eye closes, time to be me
it never happened, deny it all
i donīt recall
depravity my need, it must be satisfied
through my veins, to the heart of the problem – quickly
up my nose, next best thing,
scared even in this state
to walk my destined path

pornography my need, i canīt remember
it is not me, someone else, still i look
rape myself take what i need
the cocktail of destruction starts to work
my hide is revealed

in the morning a different me
no i never did – i find it disgusting
drugs should be banned
death penalty for rape
i know all the social responses
what you see is what i want you to see

days and nights can pass mindīs eye stays open
and i accept it
but it is not me, only the way i must be

two meet with mindīs eyes open
one or both closes
the stranger is unconcealed

my hide is the real me

deny it all, deny it all
selective memory
i can only be me when i am on my own – alone


all rights: stephen bray [2002]